I think I'm ranting and raving, but this also feels like I vomited all over the page.

I miss my sister a lot today, and my boyfriend. I miss my cat Mayden, who I haven’t seen in almost two years. I miss my Army girlfriends, or “battle buddies” as they were affectionately known.

We all used to hold each other when we would cry, because up until that point, I suppose a lot of us had never felt true sorrow, failure, and devastation in such a desperate capacity. I was one of the “the mothers” of the female bay, because I was older, and I took care of the girls - but they took care of me too. During those four months we didn’t have anything but each other, and we didn’t feel awkward about screaming and crying on each other’s shoulders. Honestly, looking back, it was . . . really nice. It was human. Basic training was awful and it broke my already shattered spirit in the beginning, but after I was knocked to the ground, I got back up. Some of those memories I have with the women I served with are moments and relationships I will cherish forever. You don’t know true loyalty and comradery until you’ve bleed on someone, or cried because they were crying.

Sorrow and hardship can be a gift.

It’s a blessing of insight that you wouldn’t otherwise have.

People don’t really allow each other to feel like that. We shut people out to look “put together”, or “strong” or some other unhealthy cultural bull shit. I’m getting tired of disingenuous social practices. Does anybody else get exhausted by this? God, I am so over it. Hell, I even catch myself doing it, so I know it’s deeply ingrained in us. Granted, the Army as a whole, looked down on showing emotion, but life was different in the barracks.

God, I’m not sure why I’m even reminiscing right now. I think I feel lonely, and I’m sick and angry, so I’ll rant about it. I don’t care. This is how I feel, and I hate it, and right now, everything sucks, and YOU KNOW WHAT?

It’s okay.

It’s okay to scream, it’s fucking okay to cry, and it’s fucking okay to be angry. Whoever the hell is reading this, let me tell you, right now, I am your fucking shoulder to cry on, cause doing this life thing? It sucks. Nobody asked to be human. I sure as hell didn’t. I would have been fine being a speck of stardust.

But here we are, and somehow, WE have to get through it, TOGETHER.

Ironically, I’m pretty happy with my life, sickness just has a way of making me feel depressed and hopeless. Sigh. See? Once again, I hate being human sometimes.

Suga Lips ft. Dafne


Jesus, every time I think I love the digital images from a session, film has got me swallowing my words.

Here we goooooo.

Dafne was chill and went along with my, “Hey, put sugar on your lips, cause you know, “sugar lips”. That’s cool, right? You down?”

By the time we got to it, the sun was fading and the sugar wasn’t sticking as much as I would have wanted, so I had her put on another outfit, and we played around with the fading light and her car beams.

I like, I like, I like. Hope you do too. <3

Dafne - Part I

Winter blues are hitting me hard lately, so I don’t have much to say other than, “look at these pretty photos I took of this kick ass model I met via IG”. So, I’m going to do that.

Dafne is absolutely, without a doubt, a fantastic model to work with. (I mean, look at how she emotes. SO. GOOD.) ANNNNNND she drove all the way up to Keene, NH from MA to shoot with me, which I mega appreciated, because I currently do not have a car.

To make the drive worth my model’s time, I try really hard to shoot at least two concepts in a sitting. Three is better, but two is fair. This was also a test shoot, so we did a very basic wardrobe, and just made them moody AF because it’s freezing, and nobody wants to be outside to begin with.


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Anyway, for those that know me, I’m very heavy on symbolism, so I threw in a nod to some of my cult heritage in these photos (as you can see on set one). Photography, I guess if nothing else, can be cathartic.

Enjoy, peeps.

Sasha + Mon Amie

Kind of a quick little post, but this is my set for the test shoot I did with Sasha from a few weeks ago. We shot inside “Mon Amie”; a local jewelry boutique store here in Keene, NH. Everything was shot on film.

Love how simply elegant these are, but would like to try this concept again with either a higher speed film, or a continuous lighting set up, as some of the shots (that I did not include here) were a lot grainier (even for film standards) than I would have preferred. As you can tell, the best shots were near the window. Gotta love natural light.

Sasha is fantastic model, and the owner of Mon Amie, was absolutely lovely. Can’t wait to work with both of them again!

Model : @sasha.explores
Jewelry : Mon Amie Fine Jewelry in Keene, NH
Film Scanning : Monadnock Imaging
Equipment : Kodak Gold 200 + Ektar 100 // Pentax K1000 50mm

Adam Soucy // @adamgsoucy


Ever since I was medically discharged from the Army (your girl got a lot of stress fractured bones during basic training, so that kind of sucks, but it is what it is), but anyway, I have so much to catch up on. I will eventually do that, but for now, here is my latest, latest, shoot with my boyfriend Adam Soucy. He’s a professional drummer out of the Southern NH / Boston, MA area, so go give him love too.

Adam’s Links :


IG : @adamgsoucy

We were out frolicking around being all romantic and stuff, and I had him pull over really quick so I could take some shots of him with the overcast lighting we were getting that day. Really, really, love how these turned out. We got the vibey / musician magazine look going on here, so I was happy.

Equipment :
K1000 Pentax / 50mm / Kodak Gold 200